2016...you got me!! / by Tatiana Thomas

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We officially have less than 15 days until the ball drops on 2016 and welcomes in 2017.  Now, I don't know about you, but 2016 was probably the roughest year I've had in my entire 21 years of life (yes, I said 21...I'll be 21 again next year too if anyone's wondering).  This year my faith was tested and my life was shaken.  There were many things that transformed me & now that I'm recovering I can clearly reflect on these situations ...honestly, I'm grateful that I survived.  I'm grateful that I'm able to look back and smile going forward. I'm grateful that I survived mentally & emotionally.

Soooooooo now that I've been grateful

can I just take a moment to really tell ya'll about this year!?!?

And before I start my rant, I completely understand that everyone had their own challenges this year & my tangents may be minor in comparison; however...I can only speak on my own hiccups & speed bumps.  With that said - I want you to share in the comments below because we have to get this off of our chests before we see 2017! We can't take any baggage into 2017...we have to leave it here.  Let's talk about it:  Did you lose your job? Did you have a terrible and dramatic breakup? Did you lose a loved one?  I did. Every last one within the first 3 months of 2016.

So don't be ashamed. Just really reflect & divulge...sit on my chair. I won't even charge you by the hour. Just let it out! Because it has really been a full entire year...

Listen...

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I had a terrible break up earlier this year (but it was on the verge of ending for 4 months prior so it was a necessary loss. Not an easy one, but a necessary one).

But my losses didn't stop there - oh noooooo, they kept coming at me...

About two weeks later I was laid off.  Mmmmhmmm, talk about a double wammy! 

At this point, I was looking for real estate for a big hole to hibernate in until I got myself together again.

"Keep going" they said. "Don't give up" they said.

And then a month later I was absolutely devastated.  I lost my grandmother to cancer and I couldn't quite find my way through the forest for the trees. She was the matriarch of our family. She was the the root of my strength and my mother's wisdom.  My sister and I struggled to keep my mom intact.  Meanwhile, we tried to keep each other in one piece.  It was the straw that almost broke me.

I remember coming home from church and listening to my gospel radio on Spotify & I literally fell to my knees and asked God to help me because I was tired (2 weeks later I got a job & now I'm the happiest I've ever been in a really long time).

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In a nutshell...2016 pretty much jipped me from the beginning.

I'll be completely honest.  With my faith and my family, I've learned so much about myself as a result. I've treated my wounds and now I'm healing. This isn't easy, this thing called life. There's no rule book to guide you in following your dreams, paying for student loans, and losing your loved ones.  

But you have to find it in you to never give up on yourself. You may not be able to see the light at the end of the tunnel, but the end may be too far out of sight right now.  Just keep going. You have to travel through the difficulties and overcome your obstacles.  It's all going to make you stronger if you use it to build yourself up rather than break you down. 

You are responsible for your outcome.

Whew! Now that that's over...let's welcome in 2017 with ribbons, wine, and sequins. Or with onesies, popcorn, and throwback movies!

Either way, let's go!